Thursday, February 27, 2025
An algebra of faith
Sunday, December 29, 2024
Aspects of Participation in an Evangelical Worship Service
Sometimes I think I'm a passive spectator in a church service. And I've unfairly written that judgment, thinking that was the end of the story, unless something changed. But last night I came back and noticed a number of aspects of participation that I hadn't paid attention to before. All of them involve the body, cognition, emotion, and coordination with others and with the Divine. Each aspect has the potential to activate the embodiment of truth and love - connecting and participating with others for their good because of something you are learning about reality, and receiving care from them as well.
Walking in, I exchanged greetings by name with two or three people and received a bulletin and printed list of scripture verses and prayer topics. I held the list, wondering what it was for.
Singing, I held and shifted through whatever posture of worship felt meaningful to me while coordinating my voice with others, alternating between (mostly) listening to unfamiliar parts and joining with familiar parts. The songs activated memories, because the worship leader had told me two weeks before that they would play two particular songs, and I had previewed them on a streaming app to learn the tune.
During greeting time, I shook hands and made eye contact with two or three people around me, coordinating facial expressions and coregulating emotions, exchanging names, recent holiday experiences, and details about where we live, our families, and our travels.
During the responsive reading, I listened to the leader read the first part, and joined my voice with the congregation in the second part, coordinating my tempo to match theirs.
During the sermon, I listened to the pastor expressing care for listeners' difficult situations during the introduction to the sermon and opening prayer, which activated feelings of being seen, understood, and comforted.
I stood for the scripture reading.
I raised my hand in response to questions.
I heard movie quotes and saw movie images, which activated powerful shared cultural memories related to the Bible story.
I wrote notes in the bulletin and filled in missing words in the blanks.
At the end of the sermon, the pastor revealed the purpose of the list -- to guide a few minutes of prayer for the world, the church, and ourselves. A family of three sitting next to me invited me to join them and lead out in the prayer time.
It was easier for me to notice experiencing embodied participation when I visited an Orthodox or Anglican service -- maybe partly because it was unfamiliar and I had to consciously make meaning of it. But intentionally focusing my gaze on the familiar allowed me to see that participation was here, too. One advantage I found with the familiar was that I already knew some of the people, and other people I had seen their names before, which meant for deeper conversation. One fellow I met mentioned that he's visiting from out of state, and hasn't been able to find a church in his hometown, and so I was able to write to a friend near his hometown and ask for local church recommendations for him.
As Louis Agassiz said, "a pencil is one of the best eyes." So I'm writing down what I saw, in hopes that I will remember it next time I feel jaded with the ordinary.
Further reading:
Bob Tierney. 'Let's take another look at the fish: the writing process as discovery.' https://teach.nwp.org/lets-take-another-look-at-the-fish-the-writing-process-as-discovery/
Matthew Lee Anderson. Earthen Vessels. https://matthewleeanderson.com/book/earthen-vessels/
Friday, December 13, 2024
Missing
missing
Tonight, I am missing my mom (1959-2020) and the way my siblings, Dad, and I used to be together. I'm missing my friends in Taiwan, Thailand, and Myanmar. I'm missing my Aunt Sally, who passed away on November 22. I'm missing friends from Fallbrook CA, and friends from churches in the Portland area that I used to know -- Evergreen Christian, Household of Faith, Grace and Glory.
thankful
I'm thankful that one of my mom's Fallbrook friends texted me back right away when I reached out a couple weeks ago. I'm thankful that I could reunite with old church friends at a wedding and an international student gathering last weekend. I'm thankful that my Grammy is still around and picked up the phone when I called her tonight. I'm thankful that my roommate asks me how I'm doing -- and wants to hear more when I say I'm feeling nostalgic. I'm thankful for friends to eat dinner with three nights this week, for a positive connection when delivering Angel Tree gifts, for students who brought me snacks from their son's wedding in India, and for workmates to laugh with and commiserate with. The road goes up and down, but we are on our way.
psalms
This morning, I did a search of the sermons at my church that were based on the Psalms. There were 23 sermons on Psalms preached between 2017 and 2022, and none in 2023 or 2024, although I do recall one based on repentance in Joshua 7 that also mentioned Psalm 51. (We went through a long sermon series on the Torah, the Sermon on the Mount, and now Joshua in 2023 and 2024, which explains the lack of psalms recently.)
Of these 23, six sermons, or 26%, were on psalms of lament. (25-44% of all the Psalms are laments, including repentance and imprecation, according to Laurie Krieg and Matt Krieg, Journey Well, page 72.) The lament psalms preached on included Psalms 42 "As a deer pants", 64 "Hear my voice, O God, in my complaint", and 77 "I cry aloud to God", which are personal laments, and Psalms 51 "Have mercy on me" (twice) and 130 "Out of the depths I cry to you", which are repentant laments, according to the classification in Mark Vroegop, Dark Clouds, Deep Mercy, page 201.
Psalms preached on multiple times were Psalm 1 "Blessed is the man who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked" (2x), Psalm 19 "The heavens declare the glory of God" (3x), Psalm 51 "Have mercy on me" (2x), and Psalm 84 "How lovely is your dwelling place" (2x). Why do you think these ones were so popular? I think because they focus on living a flourishing life by listening to God's word (Psalms 1 and 19), repenting for personal sin along with King David (Psalm 51), and marveling at being in God's house (Psalm 84). The Bible, repentance, and corporate worship are familiar territory, and since we often don't practice what we preach even in these areas, it is worth preaching on them again.
public grief
And yet, since I'm in a nostalgic mood, I was thinking too about how churches struggle to process grief in public. Why don't we sing and preach on more of the hard psalms? The ones expressing anger, sadness, and need?
We have GriefShare (which I should probably go to) and men's recovery groups and midweek prayer groups, including praying through the psalms, which I think are very much needed spaces and practices. And grief and lament and injustice come up from time to time in a larger corporate setting, even in sermons not on the psalms, such as the one this week on Ezekiel 34:11-31 on longing for the Good Shepherd during Advent season. We sang "O come, O come, Emmanuel", this week, which is very much a song of longing, both in the words and in the musical setting. And back before Easter at the Good Friday service, we had a prolonged meditation on the darkness that Jesus faced on the way to the cross.
In general, though, maybe we think we aren't ready yet to show our true feelings amongst a larger group.
how long till is it well?
Remember Horatio Spafford's song "It is well"? Its serene words of confident trust in God after losing his son, his business holdings, and his four daughters, came after a long time of wrestling with his thoughts. And even after penning the song, he walked a long, strange journey that included leading an apocalyptic cult and establishing an American colony in Jerusalem. Despite its aura as a song for sufferers, the only hints of complaint in the song are "when sorrows like sea billows roll" -- but these are echoed and compounded by the highs and lows of the chorus, reminiscent of Mendelssohn's "Fingal's Cave" with the waves of sound crashing against the rocks. Even when we don't voice them, the sorrows still roll. And the words "thou hast taught me" take a lifetime to realize.
crashing an AA meeting
Last Sunday morning I attended an AA meeting by mistake -- Google Maps said it was "Living Word Baptist Church", but it turned out to be "Sunday Solutions AA" at the Salmon Creek Grange. The woman who spoke first said she had been sweating bullets the night before thinking of what to say -- and yet the story she shared of her worst moments and how God met her there and brought her to where she is now was just what I needed to hear. Those 34 individuals at the Grange knew the peculiar joy that comes through participating in suffering together.
five seconds
A friend told me recently about Mel Robbins's "Five Second Rule" -- count to five and start moving your body toward the thing you know you need to do before you finish saying "five". Your present self will follow and your future self will thank you.
an invitation to lament
If you would like to try, and you live in the Portland area, consider joining me at Imago Dei Central City on Sunday, Dec 15, 6-7pm -- they will be having a lament worship night. Details at the following link: https://imagodeicentralcity.churchcenter.com/registrations/events/2572688
another song
Besides "It is well" and "Fingal's Cave", I recommend listening to Carrie Newcomer's song "Holy as a day is spent". I like it so well I've put it as my "go to bed" alarm song -- which I've sadly blown through tonight. Try these lyrics on...
And frying eggs sound like psalms
With bits of salt measured in my palm
It's all a part of a sacrament
As holy as a day is spent
...
Unknowingly we slow our pace
In the shade of unexpected grace
And with grateful smiles and sad lament
As holy as a day is spent
...
And morning light sings "providence"
As holy as a day is spent
Monday, December 2, 2024
Evagrius on fighting the long battle God has already won
In my last post, I did some wrestling with the song "I'm fighting a battle you've already won", feeling that its bold faith and jaunty tune are hard to square with longterm experiences of hardship until balanced with songs of lament and union with Christ.
I have one further thought, as I pick up a book from the stack on the floor. This June, I ordered a copy of John Mark Comer's Live No Lies, in a fit of compulsive bookbuying. When it came, I flipped through and found the best part: a neat little appendix on how to create your own handbook for fighting demons. This in turn directed me to the fourth-century monk theologian Evagrius of Pontus, and his book Talking Back. See below (from Book 2, Sections 2-3), where Brother Evagrius speaks the word of God from Exodus to his own tempting voice...
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"If you indeed listen to my voice and do all the things that I will say to you, I will be an enemy to your enemies and an adversary to your adversaries. For my angel will go as your leader and will bring you to the Amorite, the Hittite, and Perizzite, and Canaanite, and Gergesite, and Hivite, and Jebusite, and I will destroy them." (Exodus 23:22-23)
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Against the thought that supposes that in a single hour the evil thoughts of ____ will flee from it:
"I will not cast them out in one year, lest the land become desolate and the beasts of the land multiply against you. Gradually I will cast them out from before you, until you have increased and will inherit the land." (Exodus 23:29-30)
Thank you, Evagrius -- and Moses. Here is both an acknowledgement of the long struggle and the solid hope from Scripture, telling us why the long struggle is part of the plan, and why it is worth it -- and how it is that all our striving is part of God's plan to lead us through and save us from every danger and foe, even and especially our false selves. He will do it and we will do it and it will take a long time and a lot of work and we will be stronger in the end and more aware of our weakness, and of his powerful help supporting us on every side.
You've Already Won(by Shane and Shane, found here)[Verse 1]There's peace that outlasts darknessHope that's in the bloodThere's future grace that's mine todayThat Jesus Christ has wonSo I can face tomorrowFor tomorrow's in Your handsAll I need, you will provideJust like you always have[Chorus]And I'm fighting a battleYou've already wonNo matter what comes my wayI will overcomeDon't know what you're doingBut I know what you've doneAnd I'm fighting a battleYou've already won[Verse 2]There's mercy in the waitingManna for todayAnd when it's gone, I know you're notYou are my hope and stayWhen the sea is ragingYour Spirit is my helpHe'll fix my eyes on Jesus ChristI'll say that it is wellOh, I know that it is well[Chorus]I'm fighting a battleYou've already wonNo matter what comes my wayI will overcomeDon't know what your doingBut I know what you've done (thank you, God)I'm fighting a battleYou've already won[Bridge]I know how the story endsWe will be with you again (you're the one who saves)You're my Savior, my defense (so we don't have to be afraid)No more fear in life or deathI know how the story ends (we will be with you)We will be with you againYou're my Savior, my defense (no more fear)No more fear in life or death (alright, y'all, with everything you've got, here we go)I know how the story ends (we will be with You)We will be with you again (You're my Savior)You're my Savior, my defense (no more fear)No more fear in life or deathI know how the story ends (oh, I need no other, need no other)[Chorus]I'm fighting a battleThat You've already wonNo matter what comes my wayI will overcomeDon't know what you're doingBut I know what you've done (thank you, God)I'm fighting a battleYou've already won[Outro]I'm fighting a battleYou've already won (hey)
Grudem on worship music
When it comes to worship music, I strongly resonate with most of theologian Wayne Gudem's thoughts below. So you can understand why, listen to my oscillating heart.
When I can turn my head toward the back of the room, and the voices of the congregation fill my ears, I feel like a part of the body, a family.
When all I can hear is one voice at the microphone from the stage, I feel like a spectator.
When songs are as easy to sing from memory in the dark with a group of friends at Cottonwood Beach when wind blew the sheet music away and everyone's cell phone is off, as they are with a live band and words on a big screen, I feel like I can "take the Name of Jesus with" me wherever I go.
When songs are belted out in a key above my normal vocal range, with a nondescript verse, anthemic chorus, and two bridges and a thumping drum and electric guitar solo, I feel trapped, like I woke up in a concert at the Clark County Amphitheater that I didn't buy tickets for, and I know I'll have no way of remembering any of the words on my way home except for the chorus.
When I hear the strains of a song from my childhood and notice myself and everyone around me swaying and swinging, or when I find a lilting melody I can harmonize with, I know I've found my place.
When I feel the sanctuary room start to fill with electric sounds and panic starts to rise within me, when I can no longer hear my own voice or that of the person behind me, and I grab my backpack and run to the lobby only to find one or two friends who're there for the same reason, I start to realize that the worship-industrial experience was not designed for people like us.
And my friends and their kids are in the band. How can I love what they love and still respect my own feelings?
Try a thing seven times and you'll like it. It almost worked with jelly rolls. I even found a BlackPink song that I liked after listening to their entire discography.
And the mystery I cannot yet grasp is how some musical experiences can move others in and yet close me out.
In the shower Monday morning, I find myself humming "I'm fighting a battle you've already won", even while wrestling with thoughts that I don't quite believe it yet, that the words and their catchy tune don't take hardship seriously enough. And so I switch to "Where are you, Lord" or "Teach me to abide", and then back comes the catchy tune with the bold words, and this time I like it better in spite of myself. We need both, and the one song makes more sense in light of the other.
And still, I think there is such a thing as a different spirit or ethos, both between songwriters, and between songleading styles.
I asked ChatGPT to evaluate the songs of Phil Wickham with those of his brother Evan, and decide for each whether the lyrics reflected the theology of Joel Osteen's Your Best Life Now or Joseph Hellerman's When the Church Was a Family. ChatGPT said Phil's songs were just a bit like Osteen's book because of his emphasis on the individual worshiper celebrating their victory through Christ (although Phil focuses more on the glory of God and Osteen more on self), while Evan's songs were more like Hellerman's book because of his focus on community and contemplation and drawing from the wider historic church tradition. If you listen to Evan's story of his crisis of faith and reconstruction, you'll understand why. I especially recommend the breath prayer (mentioned here) which he uses to help submit his identity as a songwriter and every other identity and make them secondary to his one identity as loved child of God:
"Nothing to lose. Nothing to prove.
My life is Christ. Nothing else matters."
And now on to Mr. Grudem:
"Worship Music: Some Personal Observations"
(from Wayne Grudem, Systematic Theology, 2nd edition, chapter 51. Grand Rapids, MI: Zondervan, 2020.)
In the following section, I have included some arguments from Scripture and also some personal observations and preferences based on my experiences. I realize that some readers may have different opinions, but I hope that, in general, churches will find these observations helpful.
a. "Look at Me!" Vs. "Look at God!"
The first consideration when thinking about worship music is the heart attitude of the worship leader (and the same questions could be asked of any others in the worship band or choir). Is the worship leader's main goal to get people to think, "He (or she) is an excellent musician and put on an excellent musical performance," or is the main goal to get people to think, "He (or she) led me into the presence of God, and I truly worshiped God." The first answer produces a "performance mentality" where the musicians seek to show off their musical abilities, and if people clap at the end, they will be mainly clapping for the musicians. The second answer leads to a "worship atmosphere" where people often sense the powerful presence of the Holy Spirit, where the time of singing sometimes will end with reverent silence, and if people do clap at the end, they will be clapping for God, as in Psalm 47:1: "Clap your hands, all peoples! Shout to God with loud songs of joy!"
Avoiding a "performance mentality" is admittedly difficult, perhaps especially so for highly trained musicians who have been receiving acclamation for years for their outstanding musical performances. But it is certainly possible through prayer and through recognizing that "God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble" (James 4:6; 1 Peter 5:5).
Because of these same considerations, my personal preference (others may differ) is for a worship leader to speak to the congregation between songs rarely, and then very briefly, and sometimes not at all. At the end of a wonderful worship song, I am often thinking about God and his presence in the room, and then if the worship leader starts talking, this breaks my concentration, and I have to start thinking about the worship leader and what he or she is saying.
b. Volume.
Many years ago, my wife, Margaret, and I were part of an exciting new church where God was evidently at work, many people were being saved, and the church was bursting with hundreds of people in their twenties and thirties. We especially loved the times of worship with new contemporary worship songs. But one Sunday a friend from another state visited our church. After the service, he said, "The drums were so loud that I guess you don't want anyone over forty years old coming to your church." (He himself was a mature, wise pastor of a large, influential church.) I didn't understand what he meant, because we loved the music in that church, but now at age seventy-one I clearly understand. After age forty or so, many people's ears become sensitive to loud noises, and for some it becomes physically painful to sit in a church with a loud worship band. (This is true for many but not all people after age forty or fifty.)
I am now aware, through many personal conversations, that there are several churches in our area with good Bible teaching but with music so loud that many of our friends won't consider attending, or they will show up thirty minutes late so that they miss the worship time but hear the sermon. In either case, they are prevented from participating in the corporate worship life of that church. Commenting in Christianity Today on the same problem, Canadian professor John G. Stackhouse Jr. wrote, "I find almost every worship band in every church I visit to be too loud -- not just a little bit loud, but uncomfortably, even painfully, loud."
The situation has some parallels with the church at Corinth, where some people were enjoying speaking in tongues during the worship service but other people could not understand what they were saying. Paul rebuked them: "You may be giving thanks well enough, but the other person is not being built up" (1 Cor. 14:17). The Corinthian tongue-speakers were genuinely worshiping and giving thanks to God, but when there was no interpretation of the tongues, they were leaving others out and not acting in love. Reflecting a similar concern, my comments to the worship leader in a high music-volume church would be to paraphrase Paul's statement in 1 Corinthians 14:17: "You may be praising God well enough, but your music is so loud that many other people are not allowed to worship with you."
Of course, there is a place for Christian bands to give loud concerts aimed at (for example) people under thirty. This may be for an evangelistic purpose, or it may simply be a special concert for people to enjoy listening to. But the Sunday morning worship service, where the whole church should be worshiping together, is not the place for such a concert.
c. Are People Mostly Singing or Mostly Listening?
Corporate worship should be a time when the vast majority of people in the congregation actually sing songs of worship and praise to God. A worship leader should lead people to worship, not simply worship God by himself or with the band while everybody else watches.
Paul was writing to the entire church in Colossae when he said they should be "singing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, with thankfulness in your hearts to God" (Col. 3:16). This was not just a command for a few Christians with unusual skill in playing instruments or singing, but it was for everyone. But I have visited churches I could see hardly anyone singing but almost everyone standing listening with mouths closed. In such a case, the worship band was not leading congregational worship but was replacing congregational worship with a mini concert.
In a related verse, Paul writes to the Christians in Ephesus, "Be filled with the Spirit, addressing one another in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing and making melody to the Lord with your heart" (Eph. 5:18). In this verse Paul specifies that the songs in our worship times can be addressed both to "one another" and also to "the Lord." One implication of Paul's encouragement to be "addressing one another" in our songs is that a congregation should be able to hear itself singing. When a worship band is so loud that people in the congregation cannot hear themselves or others singing, the people can hardly be said to be "addressing one another in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs."
On the other hand, sometimes a worship leader will silence all the instruments and lead the entire congregation in a cappella singing. I find these times especially meaningful, as I hear the entire congregation "addressing one another" and "making melody to the Lord" in songs of worship.
d. Are the Songs Easily Singable?
Many of the most popular hymns that have endured in the church through centuries have melody lines that are relatively easy to remember and easy to sing, even without musical instruments. (Think of "Amazing Grace," "When I Survey the Wondrous Cross," or "Great Is Thy Faithfulness.") Some contemporary worship music shares that characteristic: once you learn the songs, they are easy to sing.
But other songs used in modern worship have strange melody lines that are hard to learn and hard to remember. Some have pauses that need to be filled in by musical instruments, with the result that people cannot easily sing them by themselves or in small groups. And on Sunday mornings, few people will sing along with songs that are not easy to sing.
e. Do Most of the People Know Most of the Songs?
There is certainly a place for teaching a congregation new songs ("Oh sing to the Lord a new song," Ps. 96:1; see also Ps. 33:3; 40:3; 98:1; Rev. 5:9; 14:3). But the vast majority of songs in any worship service should be ones that people already know because people worship best with songs they know.
Twice a year at Phoenix Seminary (where I teach) we have a special evening chapel service for the whole seminary community, and every time we do this, we invite a worship leader from one of the more than 100 churches that send students to our seminary. These different worship leaders nearly always do a good job of leading such a diverse group in worship because they stick to familiar worship songs that almost everyone already knows. But occasionally a worship leader will try to teach us a new song that he himself has recently composed. It never works well. This is because people cannot worship very effectively while they are trying to learn a song they have never heard before -- their minds are concentrating on trying to learn the melody and the words, and not very much of their attention is focused on coming into the presence of God.
f. Older Hymns Vs. Contemporary Worship Songs.
I am thankful to God for the proliferation of many thousands of new worship songs in recent decades. I find many of them conducive to deep, heartfelt worship, both in the assembly of the church and in private times of praise at home or in my car.
However, I am surprised that some churches now sing only songs written in the last twenty or thirty years (or less). The church of Christ has a rich history of hymns that have endured through the centuries and have effectively expressed people's faith and love for God. It is true that in previous generations churches have regularly adopted new songs and hymns, but they have not entirely discarded the older ones.
I have carried around a favorite hymn book for about forty years, and when I went through the index recently I found that I knew 324 of the 538 hymns in that book. I would feel a great loss if I attended a church where none of those familiar hymns were ever sung. While I appreciate many contemporary worship songs, I also love to sing songs like "Jesus, Thou Joy of Loving Hearts," originally written (in Latin) by Bernard of Clairvaux, who lived 1091-1153. If this song has ministered to people's hearts for over 800 years, that is a good argument for continuing its use from time to time. What about "Be Thou My Vision" (from an Irish hymn, eighth century AD), "All Creatures of Our God and King" (Francis of Assisi, lived 1182-1226), or "A Mighty Fortress Is Our God," written by Martin Luther (lived 1483-1546)? More recently composed but still nearly 300 years old are hymns by Isaac Watts (lived 1674-1748), such as "When I Survey the Wondrous Cross."
Future generations will continue to reap spiritual blessings from the richness of these older hymns if churches today continue to use them in worship, along with contemporary worship music as well. But a word of caution -- worship leaders who incorporate some older hymns as well as newer worship songs should realize that, for people who have sung these hymns for decades, they are truly the music of their hearts, music with which they have long familiarity. Therefore any efforts at "improving" the words or the music should be done minimally, if at all, and only when really necessary, not just for novelty, because this would then be asking people to learn a (partially) new song (see section e above). Just as an older generation can learn new worship songs, so a younger generation can certainly learn some of the older hymns of the church.
g. The Theological Content of Worship Songs.
It is important, as a first priority, that the words of all the songs used in worship faithfully represent the teachings of Scripture. Paul tells Titus, "Teach what corresponds with sound doctrine" (Titus 2:1), and that also applies to worship songs because the songs sung by a church have a teaching function -- and that teaching needs to be theologically sound.
Over time, the songs should also encompass the wide range of topics taught by the Bible. The well-used hymnal that I mentioned in the previous section has a "Topical Index" with 101 categories of theological and practical topics that are addressed by these hymns. I do not know if a compilation of modern worship songs would have such a diverse range of topics. Whatever songs are used in worship in a church, it would be beneficial to the entire church if, over the course of months and years, the songs as a whole imitated the content of the teaching of the apostle Paul, who proclaimed "the whole counsel of God" (Acts 20:27).
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Note from Nathan: I posted this on Facebook on 12/2/2024, and then revised it slightly and posted it here, after some encouragement by my FB friends, particularly Brenda Boerger and Joana Jones.
Friday, November 8, 2024
Barsanuphius on the sanctified imagination
In the following letters to a deacon, 6th century spiritual director Barsanuphius of Gaza uses a sanctified imagination to show how to visualize God's presence and repent while serving communion.
Letter 241
Question from the same person [a brother monk] to the same Great Old Man [Barsanuphius]: "Father, since your holiness ordered me to serve at liturgy, declare to me, I implore you, what I should be pondering or meditating as I stand before the altar with the priest, or when I am cutting up the holy bread or offering people to drink of the holy blood, or again when I am carrying Communion and taking it to someone. And should I have a special vestment for liturgical use or a covering for my legs?"
Response by Barsanuphius.
Brother, all of this is a spiritual allegory, but you understand it literally. The deacon serves like the Cherubim, and ought to be all eye, all intellect, with his intellect and thought looking upward, with fear, trembling, and doxology. For he bears the body and blood of the immortal King. He even assumes the face of the Seraphim in proclaiming the doxology and in fanning the hidden mysteries as with their holy wings, recalling through these wings the levitation from this earth and from things material, while crying out ceaselessly with his intellect in the temple of the inner self the victory hymn of the magnificent glory of our God: "Holy, holy, holy, Lord of Sabaoth; heaven and earth are full of your glory." And from the dreadful and fearful voice of this proclamation, the devil falls away trembling from the captive soul, and the demons are made to flee in confusion and shame, leaving it free from their slavery.
So now the soul recognizes that the true light has dawned upon it; and, focusing its attention, it sees the beauty of the immortal Lamb and seeks to be filled with his body and blood. Then, it hears the loud voice of David crying out and saying: "Taste and see that the Lord is good." And approaching with fear, it becomes a partaker of his body and blood, and this taste becomes indelible in the soul, protecting it from every passion. "Devote yourself to these things," whether you are standing before the holy mysteries, or else dividing or distributing the drink, or while carrying Communion to someone or gathering up the holy things, and generally in every service that you perform at the altar.
As for your vestment, acquire a spiritual cloak in which God is well pleased. The covering for your legs signifies mortification of the members. Tell me, brother, if a person wears a purple, fully silken robe and yet is a fornicator, does the clothing purify that person from fornication or from the other passions? What then shall they do who are worthy of the holy mysteries but who lack garments? The Lord ordered us to have one garment, and that is the garment of virtues, of which may God make all of us worthy to the ages. Amen.
Letter 242
Question by the same person to the same Great Old Man: "Master, forgive me, and pray for me for the sake of the Lord, that my senses may be sanctified. And although your holiness said that the deacon ought to be like the Cherubim and the Seraphim, yet I am polluted in the senses. What, then, shall I do in order that my ministry as a deacon may not be to my condemnation? For I am wretched and cannot control myself. For God's sake, help me so that I may not lose my soul in every way."
Response.
Do your best always to remember this image of how the deacon ought to be and of how you actually are, remembering death and how you are going to encounter God. And in continually condemning yourself, your heart feels compunction in order to receive repentance. For he who said by the prophet: "First confess your sins, so that you may be justified," this same one justifies you and renders you innocent of every condemnation. Indeed, it is said: "It is God who justifies; who is it then that will condemn you?" So, as I have on other occasions stated to you, acquire humility, obedience, and submission, and you shall be saved. And do not argue at all, saying: "Why this, or why that?" but become obedient, especially to your abbot, who, after God, cares for you and has been entrusted with your soul. And if you have the zeal to keep these things, then I shall do abundantly more than I possibly can, so that God may grant you the strength to make this possible. The Lord shall keep you and protect you from the evil one. Amen.
(Source: John Chryssavgis (tr.), Barsanuphius and John Letters, Volume I, pp.247-249. Washington, DC: Catholic University of America Press, 2006.)
Monday, August 12, 2024
Poems on the Trinity by Gregory of Nazianzus
Three poems on the Holy Trinity
by Gregory of Nazianzus
Translated by Peter Gilbert, in On God and Man: The Theological Poetry of St Gregory of Nazianzus (Popular Patristics Series #21), pages 37-47. Yonkers, NY: St Vladimir's Seminary Press.
I know we are as though making a great voyage on a raft,
or hastening towards the starry sky upon small wings,
when, with such poems, mind has moved to exhibit the Godhead
(which transcends the power of heavenly beings to worship as is due),
or the great Godhead's statutes, and the universe's helm.
of the worse majority, as by that of the beloved few,
for this reason I take courage to break forth into speech. But flee
from afar, whoever is a sinner; my speech is directed
either to the pure, or to them that are being purified. But
infidels, like wild beasts, when on the high-peaked mountain
Christ shone forth and wrote the law for Moses upon tables,
were immediately overcome beneath the broken crags.
the worst ones of our company, who had a heart opposed to God.
instilling an uncouth people with fear, uttered of old
by witnesses of words, men of godly minds,
Moses and Isaiah (I'll speak to those who have knowledge),
who gave the law, the one new-formed, the other when it was broken.
as a loud-shouting clarion of truth, so that all
may rejoice, who are united in spirit to the entire Godhead.
by anything existing before, or afterward to be,
encompassing the aeons, and infinite; the noble,
great, only-begotten Son's great Father; who had, in the
Son, no suffering of anything fleshly, since he is mind. One other
is God, not other in Godhead, God's Word, who is
his living paternal seal, the sole
Son of him who has no origin, and most Unique from the Unique, equal
in might, so that, while the one remains the whole parent, the Son
is world-maker, lawgiver, the Father's strength and intellect.
whom the Spirit has not sealed so as to show forth his Godhead,
but are either rotten to the core, or have a vile tongue:
half-shining, invidious, clever self-taught people,
a covered-up fountain, a lamp in a murky crevice.
that is our passions' cleansing. For we must come to the
mortal's aid with those of heaven, due to
that tongue that wars against the divine: foul-minded, suicidal.
everything, and nothing higher than the Father exists. He who has sprung
from the Father is the great God's Word: eternal Son,
the archetype's image, a nature equal to his parent.
as only the Father and he that shone forth from the Father understand.
is clear to everyone, just as it is to me:
I have no right to foist on the Godhead a birthday,
an emission, or some loathsome cutting. For though I do not reproduce
dispassionately, since I'm composite, not at all subject to passion
is he who is wholly incomposite, unbodied. When things'
natures are remote, what wonder if their beginnings differ, too?
the Word, whose begetter is atemporal. When the beginningless
Father was there, leaving nothing superior to his divinity,
then also was there the Fathers' Son, having in the Father a timeless beginning,
like the sun's great circle of overwhelming clear light.
so that nothing interposes between Father and Son,
eternally existing, we should distinguish the Lord the
Son from the Lord the Father. If something came prior to God,
whether time, or will, that would divide the Godhead, I think.
thing concerning the Father is that his treasured divinity has no origin,
it's no less a thing for the honored offspring of the great Father
to have such a root. So don't exclude God from God.
"unbegotten" and "begotten of the Father" do not make
two kinds of Godhead. Someone has alleged about this that
each is foreign to the other, but the nature is inseparable, if you ask me.
since his Father, it will be admitted, is fleshless (and no man's mind
is ever so corrupt as to think otherwise).
worthlessly, and gravening in your heart a hollow fear,
you'd deny this thing, and would hurl Christ out amongst creatures,
you insult, O nitwit, the divinity of them both:
you filch the Son's, who's not God if created.
perdures, and stands as fixed, through God's great reasons.
that, through Christ's sufferings, you may become god hereafter,
do you then make him go in chains, and call him your co-slave,
honoring him with gifts for slavery, instead of for being God?
(as a smith forges a hammer for the sake of a cart),
so that, by his Firstborn's hand, God might make me,
then far worthier than the celestial Christ would be
the creature, if for its sake the Word exists,
not it for Christ. Who would maintain such a thing?
would you therefore set a yardstick on his great-famed Godhead?
stooping as a doctor over my foul-smelling passions.
Maker. A bearer of flesh, but, even so, beyond all body.
the Magi, who so came bearing gifts, and fell on bended knee.
over the tempter in three bouts. Food was set before him,
but he fed thousands, and changed the water into wine.
by the Spirit, in a voice of thunder, to be the Son of the One Uncaused.
but he rose with the dead, and the dead, the bygone, he raised up:
there a mortal's poverty, here the incorporeal's wealth.
but, for the divine's sake, hold in renown the earthly form
into which, thoughtful towards you, he formed himself, the incorruptible Son.
and don't separate in speech what the nature did not leave out.
who is God there above, and who forms God here:
almighty, imparting manifold gifts, him whom the holy choir hymns,
who brings life to those in heaven and on earth, and is enthroned on high,
coming from the Father, the divine force, self-commandeered;
he is not a Child (for there is one worthy Child of the One who's best),
nor is he outside the unseen Godhead, but of identical honor.
through the pages of divinely-inspired Law,
he shall see many ways, close-packed, collected into one,
if he has yearned, and gathered something of the
Holy Ghost with his heart, and if his piercing mind has perceived.
let him know this, he seeks unsensibly. For it wouldn't have been right,
when Christ's own hadn't yet appeared to most of humankind,
to lay on feeble hearts a weight of doubt.
for more consummate language. Who shows a fire's whole glow
to still-dim eyes, or gorges them with light insatiable?
lest you even hurt some way the springs of a sweeter light.
of the royal Father, and Christ's great fame began to dawn,
disclosed to men of little understanding,
so also, later when the Son's shone more distinctly,
the brightness of the Spirit's deity glowed.
even distributing himself to us later in tongues of fire
betokening divinity, after the Savior had gone up from the earth.
hearing how a Son and one who's not Son share one Godhead,
as though being swayed two ways, by two good arguments,
God himself, I trust, shall come forth next to give a reason.
she a half-slice, he a second child by marriage bonds,
one not by birth, the other by birth, but both being equally human.
putting this one above, this one below. One is the nature, immeasurable,
uncreated, a-temporal, excellent, free, and co-venerable,
one God in three refulgences, making the world go round.
death gets buried, and I come back racing to the light.
in the divinity, I should divide the bright divinity,
it would have been better if ... but I shudder to complete an evil sentence,
by my hope in the divine gift, and in the baths.
venerable, so I feel. But whatever man's a sinner can assert the inequality,
cutting himself asunder from God's gift, his own divinity.
Spirit, in divine words and from God-bearing
men, as, that they hold a second place to God the Father,
I charge you so to understand this, by words of wisdom's untold depths:
that it refers to the unoriginated root, it doesn't split
the Godhead, so that you've got one sole power, not worshipped severally.
not as a source, a spring, a mighty river, sharing a single current,
in three separate manners traverse the earth;
nor as a torch, taken from a pyre, converges again into one;
nor like a word, both going out from the mind and remaining in it;
nor like some shimmering of dancing sunbeams off the waters,
a restless gleaming, wavering on the walls,
approaching, then fleeing, then drawing near.
nor again coalescing; but what is God's is steadfast.
not a numberless unity, since it subsists in three excellencies,
nor a Threesome worshipped severally, since the nature is inseparable.
whenever the word refers to all three, so that, on the
one hand, it might reverently proclaim to men the threefold lights, and
on the other hand, that by it we might extol the strong-shining Monarchy,
and not content ourselves with a pluralist marketplace of gods.
one and the same. Division is strife, and hastens to
dissolution. For this reason, polyarchy is far from the Godhead, as I take it.
by times, intellect, power, or will,
where none, without brawling, would be identical even with
itself.
one the glory, one the power. So, again, the unity cannot dissolve,
being greatly honored in the one harmony of divinity.
from the wings and the veil within the divine temple,
beneath which God's royal nature lies hid. And if something extra is
for the angelic choirs, let the Trinity know what this extra is.
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